Wednesday, November 9, 2011
My fav month!!!
Out with Halloween...in with my favorite month!!!!!
I dont have nearly the decor for Thanksgiving as I do for Halloween but the simplicity is welcomed after the clutter.....
I have so much to be thankful for this year....the last couple of years were not good at all...aside from the light of my life...Stella...we had some rough spots. We lost my husbands father...in the process it was a year of trying to figure out how to take care of him when he was 4 hours away....disagreements with family members over his care...and finally the worse kinds of betrayals. BUT in the end....at the moment of his death...there was victory because we know in all certainty where he is. and those family members.......no longer even occupy a space in our heads....which took awhile...but there is victory there too!! It has been a year now....and we are so at peace! Sometimes you have to let go of toxic people...and it feels so good!
Last year was also a year of letting go of some toxic relationships...(I hesitate to say friendships)...you know what Im talking about...drama..competition...back biting...jealousy..all these things that do not belong in true friendship. At my age I know what true friendship is...and I cherish it. Im so thankful for my BFF (with whom I have NEVER had a fight....well...one almost...lololol) and all my dear friends, old and new that I depend on and love. my group of high school friends that still hang together after all these years and still act like teenagers....friends from my 20s, 30s, 40s, and now 50s...that have always been there for me thru good and bad and ugly. New bloggy friends that are so much fun...and drama free!!!!!
Now dont get me wrong....this release of the toxic has not been easy..and theres still some days when I think about how my husbands brother betrayed him and I want to lash out.....or I think of how a friend betrayed me and I want revenge...but these days have turned into fleeting moments, and I reconize them and release them before they take a foothold again.
I dont usually get so personal on my blog....forgive me, but Im so full of Thanksgiving for how far I have come and how free I feel with all this behind me. This time of year seems to always invoke these feelings of Thanksgiving...and I plan to celebrate everyday the gifts I have been given!
My oldest daughter has been living on the east coast and working in New York for the last 5 or 6 years. She has never been interested in having children (shes 37) and her career has always been her priority. When she flew out here 18 months ago, and held her new little baby niece in her arms for the first time...she felt a stirring....an awakening so to speak....and now she is 4 months pregnant with her first baby. This was as much as a surprise to her as it was to all her family..that she would ever want a baby...but miracles do happen and as happy as I was...I ws also sad to have her so far away. Well...here comes the second miracle....she was offered a position at the corporate headquarters in Seattle....BACK ON THE WEST COAST!!!! yes its still a flight to see her...but a much shorter one....to have her back on the west coast, Im so thankful.
So for this season in my life....life is awesome! I know these seasons can change, but I will enjoy everything this one has to offer!
and speaking of bloggy friends...lol...I just happened to be chatting with one and she mentioned to me how COLD those annies in the basket must be without any cloths....did she have to come here and take care of it??? LOLOLOL..well...heres the first of them all dressed, just for you girlfriend....the others will soon follow...thank you for your concern...and thank you for your friendship!!!
SO friends...what are YOU thankful for this Thanksgiving season???????