Wednesday, November 9, 2011

My fav month!!!

Out with with my favorite month!!!!!

I dont have nearly the decor for Thanksgiving as I do for Halloween but the simplicity is welcomed after the clutter.....

I have so much to be thankful for this year....the last couple of years were not good at all...aside from the light of my life...Stella...we had some rough spots. We lost my husbands the process it was a year of trying to figure out how to take care of him when he was 4 hours away....disagreements with family members over his care...and finally the worse kinds of betrayals. BUT in the the moment of his death...there was victory because we know in all certainty where he is. and those family longer even occupy a space in our heads....which took awhile...but there is victory there too!! It has been a year now....and we are so at peace! Sometimes you have to let go of toxic people...and it feels so good!
Last year was also a year of letting go of some toxic relationships...(I hesitate to say friendships) know what Im talking about...drama..competition...back biting...jealousy..all these things that do not belong in true friendship. At my age I know what true friendship is...and I cherish it. Im so thankful for my BFF (with whom I have NEVER had a almost...lololol) and all my dear friends, old and new that I depend on and love. my group of high school friends that still hang together after all these years and still act like teenagers....friends from my 20s, 30s, 40s, and now 50s...that have always been there for me thru good and bad and ugly. New bloggy friends that are so much fun...and drama free!!!!!

Now dont get me wrong....this release of the toxic has not been easy..and theres still some days when I think about how my husbands brother betrayed him and I want to lash out.....or I think of how a friend betrayed me and I want revenge...but these days have turned into fleeting moments, and I reconize them and release them before they take a foothold again.

I dont usually get so personal on my blog....forgive me, but Im so full of Thanksgiving for how far I have come and how free I feel with all this behind me. This time of year seems to always invoke these feelings of Thanksgiving...and I plan to celebrate everyday the gifts I have been given!

My oldest daughter has been living on the east coast and working in New York for the last 5 or 6 years. She has never been interested in having children (shes 37) and her career has always been her priority. When she flew out here 18 months ago, and held her new little baby niece in her arms for the first time...she felt a awakening so to speak....and now she is 4 months pregnant with her first baby. This was as much as a surprise to her as it was to all her family..that she would ever want a baby...but miracles do happen and as happy as I was...I ws also sad to have her so far away. comes the second miracle....she was offered a position at the corporate headquarters in Seattle....BACK ON THE WEST COAST!!!! yes its still a flight to see her...but a much shorter have her back on the west coast, Im so thankful.

So for this season in my is awesome! I know these seasons can change, but I will enjoy everything this one has to offer!

and speaking of bloggy just happened to be chatting with one and she mentioned to me how COLD those annies in the basket must be without any cloths....did she have to come here and take care of it??? LOLOLOL..well...heres the first of them all dressed, just for you girlfriend....the others will soon follow...thank you for your concern...and thank you for your friendship!!!

SO friends...what are YOU thankful for this Thanksgiving season???????


Kris said...

Oh what a great post Deb! It is so freeing to follow your true heart, isn't it!!! And knowing a little about your daughter's story, well it gives me chills to know that she is going to be a Mama!!!!
Life if good!!!!
XO Kris

Needled Mom said...

What exciting news. We have a friend who just had her first at 39. She, too, did not want any until now. It's great news for all of you.

Darlene said...

Wonderful post, Deb. Thank you for sharing your personal side - it's nice to know you just a bit better. :-)

I'm thrilled for your daughter - she's going to be a terrific mom.

Oh, thank goodness those dolls are finally getting some clothes. I was getting extremely concerned - I know they were very, very cold - brrrrr! LOL


So glad you are where you are at, now in your life. Family can definitely hurt you and sometimes you have to let go. Great news about your daughter. I know you will be anxiously awaiting that baby!

TheCrankyCrow said...

Congratulations - and congratulations again! Such happy news!! And - ahh - we do have a bit more in common than I even first thought....we, too, struggled with "toxicity" when my husband's father passed....We were a bit slower learners - and came from a long line of "family is what matters" people...but there comes a time when they cease being family and you realize blood does not necessarily make them so. Glad you found some freedom - and the letting go of the hurt is the hardest - but, for me, if I remember that if I hold on to anger and resentment, it is me who is being punished, it makes it a bit easier to move on....Love, love, love your Annies to pieces. I was never a huge Annie fan - till I saw I WANT one! Enjoy your harvest season....Smiles & Hugs ~ Robin

Kim said...

Sounds like life is dealing you many happy times, happy times that allow sad and disappointing events to fade away to nothingness, right where they belong. I've thought that you have been more active, creative and simply sounding much happier since you moved to your new home - since little Stella joined your family. I wish your eldest daughter a great pregnancy and all of the joy that comes with "expecting", just think of it, two grandchildren! You are a very lucky girl. Happy Thanksgiving. :o)

Pokey said...

I love your heart share, Deb, you are appreciated! Congrats on the baby news too, how special ~ and love your new Annie dress!

Tangerine Pug said...

way to go Debbie! From the heart is always best! Love to you and your fabulous family, I love each and every one!

Libby said...

I know how wonderful it feels to let go of those toxic relationships - it is hard to let go, but so freeing when it's done.
Congrats on all the exciting news with your daughter! It will be such fun for your whole family.

blessedmom's simple home said...

Congratulations on the new grandbaby on the way. We have much to be thankful for too.

quiltmom said...

One of the joys of getting older is finding the joys of daily life and not getting caught up in the drama.
I am glad that I am married to a wonderfully supportive man who loves me for what I am rather than what i am not. I feel fortunate to have a house and a son and two parents who can live independently in their own home ( my dad is 80, my mother 75) I am fortunate to have reasonably good health and work at a job that I enjoy with people that I care about. I love the children that I teach and find great pleasure in quilting and beading. I have a small group of friends who are there for me in thick and thin.. I am truly blessed.
Have a wonderful Thanksgiving...

Maryjane-The Beehive Cottage said...

Bless your daughters heart! Congrates for the soon to be baby! Love your Annie doll!